I can take all 9 inches

Mistress Alexa,

First, I just want to say “YOU ARE INCREDIBLE” and thank you for all the time you have given to me with regard to my training. I really truly want you to transform me into a shemale slut. I hope you can keep me focused on that goal. I know the road will be very difficult for me. Bringing the girl inside me out will be very challenging. I am very stubborn and don’t want to loose my “manhood”. I learned alot about myself today. After our chat I did alot of thinking and I wanted to take time out to update you on my current state of mind and the changes I am experiencing both physically and emotionally.

These changes have been taking place slowly over the last 3 years or so. Sex with partner is mostly oral. Intercourse is very rare and not exciting for me. I have no children. I find it difficult to stay hard basically. I always think about being a shemale slut while it is happening. Otherwise, I get super hard with my dildos. I can bring myself to the most intense orgasms with a big dildo inside my “cunt” and one down my throat. I can take all 9″ inside my “cunt” and 8″ down my throat. I am getting used to the smell of my “cunt”, cum and rubber. I am getting hard just writing this message to you. I don’t have to use my hand anymore and that has taken years for me to develop. It is so intense it scares me. When I cum that way I can feel deep down that I am a girl. I experience multiple orgasms that way. Without the dildo deep inside my cunt my orgasms are much weaker. What does this mean? And is it safe for my body? Please advise me on this further.

I find myself wanting strongly to go buy some heels, stockings, bra, make-up, dresses and a wig again. Panties feel like they belong on my cunt. I don’t want to purge again. I hope you can help me to prevent it again. I find myself watching alot of QVC jewelry, make up and woman fashion programs on tv more and more lately. I guess I am just realizing it more after our chat. I am scared deep inside to be honest with you. I wish you were here now. Part of me wants to just runaway. Please help me through all this. Will you eventually put me on hormones? What is in my future? Will I become a cock whore? I don’t want to be alone. Please write back to me when you can. I will be waiting to here from you. Now, my cunt feels empty alot more and I find myself drawn to my dildos just to feel them (the big one has realistic balls that move in the sack). I just love that especially when I am sitting on it. Please don’t leave me.

Sincerely,
M

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