Pantyhose Sissy Letter

Pantyhose Sissy Letter to Mistress Alexa:

I want to thank-you for the work you do, tell you how you have touched my life and how much freedom you have given to me by allowing to accept the female side of my body.  I have been wearing panties and pantyhose for the last month straight and I never realized what I have been missing.  You can’t imagine how confused and frustrated I get when I am not able to wear them during the weekend.  But right now, I am sitting at work wearing a pair of pantyhose and panties showing a small token of my affection to you. You can’t imagine, or can you, how nervous I am writing my confessions and acceptance of being a pantyhose slut.  When I was growing up, my mother gave me a pair of pantyhose after I repeatedly asked to try them on.  I am pretty sure my mother gave them to me to get it out of my system, but it just made want another pair after that and then more and more.  While growing up and throughout the rest of my life, I have always enjoyed wearing pantyhose and masturbating in them.  Each time I would feel ashamed and throw them away, but would buy another pair later on to enjoy myself again.  A few years ago I purchased your tape, “Pantyhose Sissy” and I don’t know how to explain the affects it has had on my life.  Instead of feeling ashamed of being a pantyhose slut, I have embraced my decision with your care and guidance.

I still remember the first time that I listened to your tape.  I was surfing the web looking for pantyhose sites to visit during a business trip and stumbled across your website.  I immediately bought your tape and prepared myself to listen.  I put on a pair of pantyhose, my headphones, and lied down on the bed; not knowing what to expect.  Your voice put me at ease and I was floating on a cloud, easing into a deep dependence on you to show me the correct way to accept being a pantyhose slut.  I was caressing myself in my pantyhose, rubbing my legs together, each time sending shivers up to my little clitty.  When you commanded me to place my hands on my sides and to lie still, I let you guide me further and further into a state of relaxation and bliss.

I felt like I was floating, relaxed, and proud of myself for accepting who I really am.  When you allowed me to rub my legs together, which I really never did before, it was like sending sexual electricity throughout my whole body and then straight to my little clitty, just waiting to fully explode.  Then when you allowed me to caress my little clitty, I was on a path of no return, you voice so assuring and the pleasures you were allowing me to enjoy was leaving me weak and excited at the same time.

Then your command of making me drop my hands to my side again and then to caress my little clitty to make me precum.  I listened and soaked in every one of your commands and yes, I am just a little girl who wants to wear my pantyhose every day.  Then your commands of silky smooth made me precum more and more and when you allowed me to cum, I was hopelessly lying on the bed, shaking in a pool of amazement and wondering what happened to me.  Then you bought me out of trance, not wanting to leave the state that you put me in and enjoying every minute of it.  It was the first time that I ever been hypnotized, I was weak; emotionally and physically spent from your lesson you let me experienced.

I didn’t know what to think until after I was fully awake.  My mind was confused on what just happened and I immediately took off the pantyhose and throw them in the trash. I was feeling ashamed and humiliated, but it felt so right for me.  I slipped into the bath to try to wash away these feelings but at the same time I caught myself, calling myself a pantyhose slut and how I should be proud of myself in taking the next step.  Well, as you can imagine, the next day I was back at the store buying a couple of more pairs of pantyhose and enjoying myself again with your gentle love and caresses, directing me to accept who I really am.  I immediately bought a couple of more tapes from you site, Panty Boy, Transformation, and Sissy Training.

I have experimented with other aspects of feminization, high heels, and dresses, make up, but never really felt comfortable with them and usually ended up throwing them away after awhile.  But during a business trip to Southern California, I took a side trip to a mall, walked into the Victoria’s Secret (while wearing a pair of black pantyhose), had a very pleasant conversation with a young lady on which panties I would like to purchased, and walked out being the proud owner of six pairs of panties.  I always thought that I would be crossing the line if I ventured over into the panty realm of cross dressing, but how wrong I was in thinking so for so many years.  I went back to my hotel room and slipped them on, knowing that I was going to take pleasure in them, but not knowing how much pleasure they were going to give me.  I can’t fully explain the sensation of wearing pantyhose and panties at the same time.

What a waste of time it was before when I wasn’t wearing any panties while I was wearing pantyhose. The way the panties ride up my ass, constrain my little clitty in front, keep my pantyhose in place, and how my ass looks so cute and sexy in them.  It kind of feels like someone has their hand on my ass, caressing my ass throughout the day, making me feel sexy.  What was I thinking of not wanting to wear them?

So now, thank-you for your help and guidance in this journey, my favorite part of the day is preparing myself in the morning with my pantyhose and panties.  At first, I usually just threw them on at work hoping that nobody could see through the walls and making sure my clothes were covering everything up.  But now I am taking my time to ensure that my pantyhose are put on correctly (no sagging), my panties are pulled up between my ass, my little clitty is restrained in place, and then a couple of minutes of gazing and enjoying the site in the mirror.  I have learned to take my time now-a-days because I was getting too many runs in my pantyhose, not like I didn’t have an extra pair on hand, but also didn’t want to waste the pleasure of wearing them also.  No matter how small the run is in a pair of pantyhose, I just can’t put them on, if I am a pantyhose slut, I want to make sure I look right and sexy and not too cheap.  I also look forward to matching my daily outfit with my pantyhose and panties, just getting a little fashion sense going on here.

Living in Hawaii hasn’t been the idea place to purchase pantyhose since it isn’t ideal pantyhose weather.  The department stores don’t have much of a variety; they usually just carry the Hanes line, which is not too popular with me.  I just don’t like the silkiness of the material.  I usually go with the Leggs brand, but they don’t come in a smoother top to toe, but I still like them because they are a little bit silkier then the Hanes brand.  I also go for the No-Nonsense brand, which is very sheer from top to toe, but not very durable.  The tension strength isn’t that good, but does allow my clitty to flop around to get it a little bit more excited.

I also bought a couple of Wolford pantyhose, but just wasn’t that too impressed with them, not for the amount of money they were asking for.  There is also a couple of off brands but nothing worth mentioning about them.  So, as you can see, I have been enjoying myself in accepting who I really am.  I take real pleasure in seeking out the sales ladies and asking them about their products and every now and then, they let go with a little smile of approval of knowing that I am buying pantyhose and panties for myself.

I don’t know where this is all going to take me, but I am looking forward in taking the next step and having the pleasure of putting on my first bra.  Like I said before, I was always on the line of not wanting to be part of the cross dressing crowd.  I was too good for that, but at the same time wanting to accept my feminization.  But I am not part of the crowd, I am separate from the crowd and will take pleasure in any form of female clothing that I feel comfortable in.  I am excited, just thinking about what type of bra I will have the pleasure of putting my breasts into.  Then just thinking about the pair of black high heels, 3 to 5 inches… I am getting just excited about just having the mental image in my head and can’t imagine the actual rush that I will receive when I slip on my bra and heels for the first time.  I am planning on taking the next step and planning on pleasing you as much as I can to ensure I receive your guidance and direction.

So in short, I am sorry for the long e-mail, but there is one more request that I must beg from you.  May I please download “Smooth Legs” tape again, you agreed in an earlier e-mail, but I haven’t received the link.  Long story short… please let me take pleasure again in my feminization and the guidance and comfort that you bring me.

I hope to hear from you soon…..